Two months... and I finally come to my senses. World has rapidly changing around me lately, people opt for 'easier' way of life, and God punishing with more and more unalarmed disaster... yet how far does He has to go before we all really woke up from this never-ending life-before-death day-dreaming? I kept asking myself what have I done to prepare myself for the definition of happiness eternity in heaven or worst ending in hell, God forbid! New year in two days, this has really triggered me into this kind of thinking. What if I die tomorrow? Not able to fulfil everybody else’s dream? My forever nightmare…. Not yet God, I beg please, I promise, I’ll be at my best behaviour for as long I can put a smile on mom’s face, as long as I can sustain a reliable sources for my fellow colleague, as long as I can keep an eye on my sisters, as long as I can be a trusted friend, as long as I can be a competitive enemy, as long as I can be loved and love someone back… I feel like crying now… There’s so many things to do yet to accomplish, time is running so fast, catastrophe is just a walk away... I’m going to take a very deep breath now and focus to what’s on top of the list… I needed all the support, appreciate it…

~ damsell in distress ~ a lost floating entity ~ egoist in the making ~ amateur snob ~
no more....

~ peace, love, empathy ... 2004